I should have spent more time on writing the blog but I got no time ( more like no will to fight back the laziness). Many things have happened on these months that I’ve studying abroad, new experience both bad and good but I didn’t regret it, I am appreciating it that I actually learning the truth of this real world and starting to grow eventually.
Many thing can be very trivial to say but when you’re starting out by own, cooking, doing laundry, even sleeping are that nuisance. When I was in my little town, though I’m fine by cooking myself since i enjoy cooking and making things, many hardship that comes along when i finally live alone. Nobody goes after me to clean up, nobody give me the money fix the bad-cooking one and even when you go shopping, you need to carry a huge bag which contains foods for the week. The thing does matter when the night comes. my hands become so swollen ( well, it’s weird for a guy to say this), and it hurts me a lot even with typing my computer. Even for the food money; when I was still in my little hometown, i always complains my mom about the food” Awww, why you have t be so stingy at food, food money is that much”, i think i do now. You do spend little money while you’re doing shopping but at the same time, you need to buy it several times which can bill you up to 200$ a month the whole food money. Many little and little things that I couldn’t imagine like swollen hands, the burned hand that nobody gonna babysit me, could be this non-trivial at all. Maybe I’m a little more grow up days by days.
Maybe just because of some trivial hardships that I have gone through, I actually caused a quarrel with someone just come to Australia who intoxicated himself in luxurious life style by paying so much money. Maybe this comes all out because of my envy and jealousy. All of my accommodation and transportation fee, probably cost me around 170 per week, while that one pay himself 250 per week just for himself and babbling all about the “efficiency” of money that he doesn’t have to cook and nothing else… but I find myself a good reason ( maybe just an excuse to save myself from my own jealousy of some rich bastards): maybe I do have a hardship, but I do believe that when I head back to my country, I’m gonna be high head and be proud that the money that not only pay for my education but also pay for my mature. I believe so and keep on believe me. 
I didn’t know that writing some kind of cheesy confession on a random blog could sooth you so much.Btw, i still wondering if I should go to sleep or continue to roaming on the net until i collapse n my tiredness. It’s 6:55 AM on Sunday already. But after this little long morning nap, I gonna focus on my Earthsmart logo since I have abandon it for 2 weeks. Time to get it done. Then probably do the magazine design. I got so many good ideas for it btu somehow they are required some very detailed workmanship. I didn’t know communication design could be this challenging. No more ” It looks great on the screen but .. when we print it out… bah blah”. i think it’s enough time to be a photoshop kid, it’s time to be act professional, that’s why they got us a big printer that we could print for free so that we can see the design our-self: life-size and kerning correctedly. Also about the magazine, i have lot and lot of idea for the magazine, however putting all of those thoughts into a single magazine maybe hard and some of they contradicting each other which really discourage me from doing the magazine.
I think that’s it, haven’t felt sleepy yet but i may try t read something else until the call of slumber finally takes over me.
